Today marks the beginning of my "adventure" to read through the Bible in 1 year. Here it goes....
I wanted to give a little bit of an intro... I don't know why... I guess because it's the Internet and I can.
Where to start... where to start... Day one of anything brings on an abundance of emotions. Day one of the new workout, day one of studying for a life changing test, day one of eating healthier, day one of reading the Bible again... Some are easier to admit to. Some are easier to start. Some are harder to continue. But as far as I'm concerned the emotion backing the need for each one is the same or similar. For me, it all begins with a thought, a picture, an idea, etc., but more than that... a desire. A desire to be something, to look like something, or to live like something that I am currently not. Knowing that I am not where/who I want to be causes anger, frustration, guilt, humility, and a lot of times embarrassment as well as countless other feelings. These emotions don't just go away. I can't just turn them off. They grow and grow and overwhelm every part of my life. This is me even two days ago. I was at the point where even the slightest word could set me off. Stupid things could ruin my day. My life was surrounded with negativity. SURROUNDED. But... Such a great word... But.... I have people in my life that can say the smallest things and make me realize what I am doing and more importantly what I am doing wrong. It was through a conversation, not even about my life, that I recognized where I am/who I am right now in comparison to where/who I want to be. I haven't read the Bible in 8 months. That, unfortunately deserves repeating.... I haven't read the Bible - the most important, influential, amazing text in my life - in 8 months... It was when I came to this that these negative emotions came to a peak and I found that they had taken over everything. I know who I am called to be and what I am called to be and knowing that I am so far from that, I started back in that direction today. It blows my mind how much relief I have felt in the past 24 hours. I am a big fan of the word "but." For one simple reason.... I make mistakes, turn my back, walk away and do things that all but glorify God....BUT... my God forgives, my God saves, and as long as I have breath in my lungs, it's not too late. And with that, things change for me. Today starts my journey to live the life I desire to live... one that not only reflects the light of God but a life that changes the lives of those around. On to day 1...
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